gotta get through this

i'm not sure if i can do this. i've already cried a whole lot and i look disgusting.


Sunday at church one of my wonderful friends gave me this passage written on a piece of paper.


Jeremiah 17:5-8 (New International Version)

This is what the LORD says:
"Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
who depends on flesh for his strength
and whose heart turns away from the LORD.
He will be like a bush in the wastelands;
he will not see prosperity when it comes.
He will dwell in the parched places of the desert,
in a salt land where no one lives.
"But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit."


So pretty much what I've realized is that I'm not trusting God completely. Because I am afraid and I am worrying. I need to look at what's going on in my life and trust God completely. It may be hard and it may be painful but God is with me so I've got nothing to fear.


But even still I'm human and I don't know if I can do this.