jesus land

started this book ... it's good ... julia scheeres says this,

"...sometimes I think that I'd rather have less suffering now, even if it meant less glory in Heaven."

that's something I feel from time to time. what if this stuff made a little bit more sense? sometimes I get so frustrated with the whole concept of religion. I don't understand. I believe God exists. I believe Jesus was his son, lived a sinless life and died so that I wouldn't have to go to hell. Beyond those things tho ... who knows.

this weekend I witnessed "Christians" that made me more uncomfortable than I can remember ever being. funny thing is, after leaving them and joining up with those who could be called "once a year churchgoers", I saw more of what I believe to be "Christian" morals or standards or what have you, than with those who claim to be giving up all for Christ. what does this mean?

productive

so far this morning I have finally gotten away from the endless ordeal known as "canceling my phone service with sprint". this has been going on since the middle of december when I switched to at&t. ridiculous. i've never spoken to more uninformed humans in my life. every question i posed had to be passed on to someone else who was sure to have the answer. my irritation level had to be showing in the last couple of calls that the sprint service team and i had.

my taxes are finally done ... or at least the federal side of things are getting in the mail today. taxes are something that I don't understand. why can't it be taken out correctly the first time. and i think i should get to see exactly where my tax dollars go. have i helped to repair a road, or have i helped to cover up a government officials sex scandal. i'm just interested is all i'm saying.

and i'm forgetting to vote today. my motivation is very low ... maybe it's the weather or perhaps my impatience. but do not worry ... i will be voting in november like the responsible u.s. citizen that i am.