so be it

"There is no safe investment. To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it in tact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries, avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket -- safe, dark, motionless, airless -- it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell."

But...

"We shall draw nearer to God, not by trying to avoid the sufferings inherent in all loves, but by accepting them and offering them to Him; throwing away all defensive armour. If our hearts need to be broken, and if he chooses this as the way in which they should break, so be it."

from C.S.Lewis' book The Four Loves

I've learned a lot from this book. A lot about love. A lot about relationships. But I am more than happy to move on to another book. This time it's a novel. Shootdang. It's called The Corner by David Simon & Edward Burns. It's about life in the inner city. My language is usually pretty tame, but this book may change that. Hopefully not.

So, this guy that's been offering me rides on a daily basis. I decided today that we're not friends. Since I saw him circle around a couple times. Maybe it was nothing. But also maybe it creeped me out a little.

But on a lighter note, the organization that I work for is doing this "12 days of Christmas" thing. Two days ago gift packages were given out to everyone. Yesterday gingerbread and apple cider was dispersed. Who knows what today may bring. I'm excited about it.

Back to work. I'm almost home ohio.